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Let The Ocean Take Me

  • Released: 10 June 2014
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    Nid: 18396
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    I've been searching for an exit, but I'm lost inside my head;
    Where I spend every waking moment wishing I was dead.
    For a few minutes get me away from here,
    For a few minutes wipe away my tears.
    For I am lost right now as the ocean deep;
    I am low my friend and how my heart does sink.
    Yeah I am lost right now as the ocean deep;
    I am low my friend and how my heart does sink.

    It's like there's cancer in my blood,
    It's like there's water in my lungs,
    And I can't take another step,
    Please tell me I am not undone.
    It's like there's fire [under] my skin
    And I'm drowning from within -
    I can't take another breath,
    Please tell me I am not undone.

    I've been searching for an exit but I'm lost inside my head;
    Where I spend every waking moment wishing this would end.
    I can't take another step, I cannot live inside my mind,
    I can't face another day, I am so fucking tired.
    For I am lost right now as the ocean deep,
    I am low my friend and how my heart does sink.
    Yeah I am lost right now as the ocean deep,
    I am low my friend and how my heart does sink.

    It's like there's cancer in my blood,
    it's like there's water in my lungs
    And I can't take another step --
    Please tell me I am not undone.
    It's like there's fire [under] my skin
    And I'm drowning from within.
    I can't take another breath --
    Please tell me I am not undone.

    I've been searching for an exit but I'm lost inside my head;
    Where I spend every waking moment, wishing I was dead.
    I'll take another step for you --
    I'll shed my tears until I drown, or until I am underground.
    I'll take another breath for you...
    Will you still be there when I'm home, out from the great unknown?

    It's like there's cancer in my blood,
    It's like there's water in my lungs,
    And I can't take another step --
    Please tell me I am not undone.
    It's like there's fire [under] my skin
    And I'm drowning from within.
    I can't take another breath --
    Please tell me I am not undone.

    Nid: 362666
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    So young, heart broken, day dreaming, lost focus.
    Weaker than you've ever been, counting on a fading dream, the ocean gleaming, emerald green, the saddest thing you've ever seen.

    Your feet stuck in the sinking sand, your mind is reeling, shaky hands.
    Tears are streaming, sorrow calls, with no one there to break your fall.

    I'm lost and fading, life ain't great, my heart is breaking and life won't wait.
    There's no one there, no one around, there's not a soul and not a sound.

    So fucking young, heart broken, daydreaming, lost focus.
    A weary soul, no truth to find, they were so lost where was your goodbye?

    Your feet stuck in the sinking sand, your mind is reeling, shaky hands.
    Tears are streaming, sorrow calls, with no one there to break your fall.

    I'm lost and fading, life ain't great, my heart is breaking and life won't wait.
    There's no one there, no one around, there's not a soul and not a sound.

    You've searched your soul for far too long, your friend was lost, you carry on.
    You bear the burden of sorrow's past - but you were built, you were built to fucking last.
    You were built to last.
    I'm fading fast, out in the cold unknown.
    All sorrow here, so far from home.
    So far from home.

    I'm lost and fading, life ain't great, my heart is breaking and life won't wait.
    There's no one there, no one around, there's not a soul, and not a sound.
    No one around, and not a sound.

    Nid: 362671
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    Let the ocean take me...
    You've gotta know kid that it ain't easy.
    To take on all of your grieving, yeah you gotta believe me.

    Well don't lean on me 'cause I am falling, please don't fall with me.
    I really need you here, yeah I need you so don't leave.
    And don't count on me 'cause I am drowning, please don't drown with me.
    Just hold me in your heart, let the ocean take me.

    And you think I don't read every message that you send?
    You think I turn a blind eye, you think I'm just like them?
    It breaks my heart, all these stories, brings me to tears all this grief;
    and I feel so fucking helpless when I can't be your relief.

    Well don't lean on me 'cause I am falling, please don't fall with me.
    I really need you here, yeah I need you so don't leave.
    And don't count on me 'cause I am drowning, please don't drown with me.
    Just hold me in your heart, let the ocean take me.

    There is hope in my eyes, there is hope in these words.
    And there are far too many reasons for you to stay here on this earth. Stay with me.

    Well don't lean on me 'cause I am falling, please don't fall with me.
    I really need you here, yeah I need you so don't leave.
    And don't count on me 'cause I am drowning,
    please don't drown with me.
    Just hold me in your heart, let the ocean take me.

    Let the ocean take me.

    Nid: 362676
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    Weighed down.
    Weighed down on the way down.

    I've lived behind a mask so long, so few know who I am, they know other sides of me that hide behind a haunted man.
    And though my hands are made of stone and I break everything I see, they've saved me from myself, and they stand by me.

    Weighed down on the way down, I need someone to take my hand.
    It feels like I can't breathe and I might drown on the way down.
    I'm sick of all the come-downs, don't tell me that there's nothing wrong, I'm weighed down, way down.

    I'll fight fatigue I'll fight for you for everything that we've been through, I'll take your hand, I'll carry on, I've been weighed down for far too long.
    And though my hands are made of stone, and I break everything I see, they've saved me from myself and they stand by me.
    Stand by me.

    Weighed down on the way down, I need someone to take my hand.
    It feels like I can't breathe and I might drown on the way down.
    I'm sick of all the come-downs, don't tell me that there's nothing wrong.
    I'm weighed down, way down.

    I won't be weighed down.
    There's too much resting on this.
    Never be weighed down.
    I'll fucking stand and resist.

    Weighed down on the way down, I need someone to take my hand.
    It feels like I can't breathe and I might drown on the way down.
    I'm sick of all the come-downs, don't tell me that there's nothing wrong.
    I'm weighed down, way down.

    Nid: 362681
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    We struggle to our feet, we all yearn to be free.
    We fight yet we're weak, we all call out our grief.
    This goddamn life is our disease, but we can't always fucking weep.
    We can always turn the tide, we can all stand up and sing, "never alone".

    We fight together not alone, no matter where our bodies roam, this place is now what we call home - never alone.

    Never alone, never apart, we found each other in the dark.
    We shed our tears and fight our fears, as we are one, the lonely hearts.

    We sink or we swim when we're drowning in our grief, but we can't ever lose hope, we have to stay afloat.
    We struggle to breathe, we can win if we stand and believe, we are lost on our own, but we'll find our way home, we can always turn the tide and we can all stand up and fight - never alone.

    We fight together not alone, no matter where our bodies roam, this place is now what we call home.
    We are never, ever alone. Never alone, never apart, we found each other in the dark.
    We shed our tears and fight our fears as we are one, the lonely hearts.

    We are not lost here together, we are not lost anymore.
    We'll turn the tide, we'll calm the storm - we are ready for war.
    We are not lost here together, we are not lost anymore.
    Never alone.

    Never alone, never apart, we found each other in the dark.
    We shed our tears and fight our fears as we are one, the lonely hearts.

    Nid: 362686
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    I held Death's hand this evening.

    Can't keep my heart from beating, can't keep my throat from screaming.
    There has to be another way for me to keep on living.
    I held Death's hand this evening, closed my eyes, now I'm dreaming.
    I promise I won't leave here, "don't let me die", I'm fucking screaming.

    'Cause I've got more life to left to live, got some promises to keep.
    To all the hearts that carried me out from the ocean deep.
    I've had to do some searching, to understand the reasons for every selfish feeling...
    I held Death's hand this evening.

    Now my lungs are failing, and my heart is fading.
    My mind is taking me so far away I'm dreaming.
    For every selfish reason, I tipped the bottle drowning,
    I'll pour my heart out to stop you from leaving.
    I held Death's hand this evening, closed my eyes now I'm dreaming.
    I promise I won't leave here, "don't let me die", I'm fucking screaming.

    'Cause I've got more life to left to live, got some promises to keep.
    To all the hearts that carried me out from the ocean deep.
    I've had to do some searching, to understand the reasons - for every selfish feeling...
    I held Death's hand this evening.

    You're the ones that kept me going, I owe you this much.
    You gave me the strength to say "Hey Death, get fucked!"
    Now my lungs are failing, and my heart is fading.
    My mind is taking me...

    Nid: 362691
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    There are parts of me that have been lost at sea, I feel like I'm sinking into eternity.
    Walk with my head hung low, into calamity, with my arms outstretched, for someone to save me.

    I am a sinking ship, I am the anchors deep, set to the ocean floor in an eternal sleep.
    My heart is heavy stone, my body brittle bones, my mind an endless storm out in the cold unknown.

    'Cause I've got to find my light again, my heart is beating fast when will this ever end?
    Can I find my way back home again?
    This road I travel on, it never seems to end.

    I ain't a hollow shell no more, I've left the ocean floor - I've left the ocean floor.
    My heart's a heavy hitter now.
    My lungs they're screaming out, my heart's a heavy hitter now.

    I am a sinking ship, I am the anchors deep, set to the ocean floor in an eternal sleep.
    My heart is heavy stone, my body brittle bones.
    My mind an endless storm out in the cold unknown.

    'Cause I've got to find my light again, my heart is beating fast when will this ever end?
    Can I find my way back home again?
    This road I travel on it never seems to end.

    And once again you came back, and you rescued me, and I promise you that, I promise you that I'm out.
    I promise you that I'm out.
    My heart's a heavy hitter now.
    My fists are firmly clenched again, and this is thanks to you my friend...

    'Cause I've got to find my light again, my heart is beating fast when will this ever end?
    Can I find my way back home again?
    This road I travel on it never seems to end

    Nid: 362696
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    I am my father's son, I am my father's mistakes.
    I'm easily undone and I'm no stranger to rage.
    I am no stranger to rage.
    I built the bars out of bottles, drowned myself just to escape - I am my father's son, I am my father's mistakes.
    And I'm ashamed of myself, I just want out of this place, this fucking hell I created, I can't seem to escape.
    I had to learn for myself, the fastest way to my death, so I could follow his footsteps to my hospital bed.

    All my life I have been trying to understand myself, it seems like my own reflection is just somebody else.
    It's taken years to know my father courses through my veins, and though I never knew him, it turns out we're the same.

    I am no stranger to rage.
    I am my father's son, won't be my father's mistakes.
    I've crept through shadows and alleys, found my home on the streets, I've felt the cold glare of strangers, as they passed over me.
    I never figured I'd turn out to be such a disgrace, but I'm my father's son, the sum of all his mistakes.
    I had to learn for myself, the fastest way to my death, so I could follow his footsteps to my hospital bed.

    All my life I have been trying to understand myself - it seems like my own reflection is just somebody else.
    It's taken years to know my father courses through my veins, and though I never knew him it turns out we're the same.

    I am no stranger to rage.
    And though I never knew him it turns out we're the same - I am my father's son, won't be my father's mistakes.
    I am my father's son.

    Nid: 362701
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    I'm standing by the riverside dreaming, hope come save me now.
    I'm feeling like I can't escape, screaming love come pull me out.
    All this darkness inside me?
    Well I'm the creator.
    All this loneliness I feel?
    I'm the creator.
    The earth heaves inside of me, and there's a forest set to light, so this passion can burn, burn like a forest fire - it burns, burns like a forest fire.
    Lost in a winter's storm like wolves, with no stars to use as guides, but we're still breathing, and we're the lucky ones.
    The weeping willows on the banks where the rivers used to run.
    So, still sway with the breeze, but don't fall down to your knees - hope come save me now -

    I'm standing by the riverside and I'm dreaming, hope come save me now.
    I'm feeling like I can't escape and I'm screaming, love come pull me out.

    We have lived in the shadows now for far too fucking long, pull the wool from your eyes, tear the darkness away, we won't exist underground for the rest of our days.
    But we're still breathing, and we're the lucky ones.
    The weeping willows on the banks where the rivers used to run.
    So still sway with the breeze, but don't fall down to your knees - hope come save me now -

    I'm standing by the riverside and I'm dreaming, hope come save me now.
    I'm feeling like I can't escape and I'm screaming, love come pull me out.

    All this darkness inside me?
    Well I'm the creator.
    All this loneliness I feel?
    I'm the creator.
    The earth heaves of inside me, and there's a forest set to light.
    So this passion can burn, burn like a forest fire.
    It burns, burns like a forest fire.

    Nid: 362706
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    Just take it all, my heart, my mind, my every word from out my lungs.
    My every breath and every thought, and every word I've ever sung.

    And though I'm glad to help you out, and get your feet back on the ground, please understand I'm just a man - you understand?
    I'm just a man.
    And I feel helpless when I stumble, and my anxiety escapes; I lose all hope and I'm afraid that once again I've lost my place.

    I give it all, and when I fall, I get up and give some more.
    Until there's nothing left of me - just some bones stacked on the floor.

    But every song's a two way street, I give to you, you give to me.
    And as long as that remains I will still haul my heavy feet.
    Because you're all worth every word, and yeah you're all here in my heart.
    And I know we can sing together to avoid falling apart.

    I give it all, and when I fall, I get up and give some more.
    Until there's nothing left of me - just some bones stacked on the floor.

    At the end of everything, this is for you, this is for me.
    Your fight to overcome defeat has set the skies alight for me.

    I give it all, and when I fall, I get up and give some more.
    Until there's nothing left of me - just some bones stacked on the floor.

    Nid: 362711

Chasing Ghosts

  • Released: 7 September 2012
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    Nid: 18286
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    Will they remember my name when I’m gone,
    (When they know what I did was so fucking wrong)
    Put the steel to my wrist, lost the breath in my chest,
    (Just to forget all the wrongs I had left)
    I took the exit, left my friends in the gutter,
    (Left my life right behind me, left myself, left it all)
    Left myself, left it all, not a falter not a stutter
    Not a note, and now?,
    (There’s nothing at all)

    (Are you at all haunted by memories past?
    Are you ready to make this one breath your last?
    Is your chest so heavy you’re ready to leave,
    Or are you hoping that some one will grieve?)

    And now we roll on…
    I’m gone now,I don’t remember much,
    I just know that I would have been better off if I had stayed,
    spoken to a friend,
    (let my heart keep on beating and not given it all up)
    for the grave, for the grave
    There’s no one on the other side there’s nothing more than what I had.
    There’s no ghost left to haunt you so you know I’m still here,
    just the end of my life nothing left here at all.
    (There’s no memories here, just regrets of the dead),
    please don’t follow my footsteps – cherish all you have left.

    (Are you at all haunted by memories past?
    Are you ready to make this one breath your last?
    Is your chest so heavy you’re ready to leave?
    Or are you just hoping that someone will grieve?)

    There’s no one there on the other side,
    (there’s no one there on the other side)
    There’s nothing more than what I had.
    (There’s no ghost left to haunt you)

    There’s no memories here (memories here)
    just the regrets of the dead (regrets of the dead)
    please don’t follow in my footsteps (my footsteps)
    cherish all you have left.

    (Are you at all haunted by memories past?
    Are you ready to make this one breath your last?
    Is your chest so heavy you’re ready to leave?
    Or are you just hoping that someone will grieve?)

    (Are you at all haunted by memories past?
    Are you ready to make this one breath your last?
    Is your chest so heavy you’re ready to leave?
    Or are you just hoping that someone will grieve?)

    Nid: 18511
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    I was waiting for you man, right down there by the sea
    Where we used to meet, to share in our pain and decry misery.
    I waited, I waited, I waited I swear,
    But when I got down to the ocean, man, you were not fucking there,

    I just wish that you spoke up and held out your hand
    Because you know I was there, man, you know that I cared.

    I waited for you but you never came, no, you never came
    And now that you're gone I feel I'm to blame, yeah, I feel I'm to blame

    I wanted to hear it, I wanted to know.

    I've been grieving so much with each passing day,
    But I'm angry and hurt and I hate you all the same.

    I just wish that you spoke up and held out your hand
    Because you know I was there, man, you know that I cared.

    I waited for you but you never came, no, you never came
    And now that you're gone I feel I'm to blame, yeah, I feel I'm to blame

    I know now you hated life even more with each breath,
    I know now that you did not have any fight left.

    To know you were grieving with each passing day (I know you were grieving with each passing day)
    And to know most of all you did not want to stay (and I know most of all you did not want to stay)
    And you know you were grieving with each passing day.

    I waited for you but you never came, no, you never came
    And now that you're gone I feel I'm to blame, yeah, I feel I'm to blame

    Did I never listen? did I never show, did I never show?
    'Cause I wanted to hear. I wanted to hear it, I wanted to know.
    I wanted to know.

    Nid: 18521
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    This is my open letter,
    this is something to remember,
    I won’t be buried before my time,
    I’m not searching for forever.
    I’ve got my eyes opened wide.

    I’ve been searching under rubble from the past,
    just looking for a reason to make your life last,
    No need to look skyward for you to find hope,
    no need for redemption to be saved from the rope,
    fuck no.

    I’m not searching the sky for a reason
    to live ‘cause I found beauty right here
    and found the passion to give,
    so let me give you my heart,
    let me give you my tears,
    let me give you my life,
    let me give you my fears.

    Just so you can hold on and sing while I do,
    sing these words out so loud,
    like I sing them for you.

    This is your open letter,
    something to remember,
    we can still keep on fighting
    even though life is not forever.

    This is my open letter,
    this is something to remember,
    this is my open letter,
    I’m not searching for forever.

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  1. Will they remember my name when I’m gone,
    (When they know what I did was so fucking wrong)
    Put the steel to my wrist, lost the breath in my chest,
    (Just to forget all the wrongs I had left)
    I took the exit, left my friends in the gutter,
    (Left my life right behind me, left myself, left it all)
    Left myself, left it all, not a falter not a stutter
    Not a note, and now?,
    (There’s nothing at all)

    (Are you at all haunted by memories past?
    Are you ready to make this one breath your last?
    Is your chest so heavy you’re ready to leave,
    Or are you hoping that some one will grieve?)

    And now we roll on…
    I’m gone now,I don’t remember much,
    I just know that I would have been better off if I had stayed,
    spoken to a friend,
    (let my heart keep on beating and not given it all up)
    for the grave, for the grave
    There’s no one on the other side there’s nothing more than what I had.
    There’s no ghost left to haunt you so you know I’m still here,
    just the end of my life nothing left here at all.
    (There’s no memories here, just regrets of the dead),
    please don’t follow my footsteps – cherish all you have left.

    (Are you at all haunted by memories past?
    Are you ready to make this one breath your last?
    Is your chest so heavy you’re ready to leave?
    Or are you just hoping that someone will grieve?)

    There’s no one there on the other side,
    (there’s no one there on the other side)
    There’s nothing more than what I had.
    (There’s no ghost left to haunt you)

    There’s no memories here (memories here)
    just the regrets of the dead (regrets of the dead)
    please don’t follow in my footsteps (my footsteps)
    cherish all you have left.

    (Are you at all haunted by memories past?
    Are you ready to make this one breath your last?
    Is your chest so heavy you’re ready to leave?
    Or are you just hoping that someone will grieve?)

    (Are you at all haunted by memories past?
    Are you ready to make this one breath your last?
    Is your chest so heavy you’re ready to leave?
    Or are you just hoping that someone will grieve?)

  2. I've been searching for an exit, but I'm lost inside my head;
    Where I spend every waking moment wishing I was dead.
    For a few minutes get me away from here,
    For a few minutes wipe away my tears.
    For I am lost right now as the ocean deep;
    I am low my friend and how my heart does sink.
    Yeah I am lost right now as the ocean deep;
    I am low my friend and how my heart does sink.

    It's like there's cancer in my blood,
    It's like there's water in my lungs,
    And I can't take another step,
    Please tell me I am not undone.
    It's like there's fire [under] my skin
    And I'm drowning from within -
    I can't take another breath,
    Please tell me I am not undone.

    I've been searching for an exit but I'm lost inside my head;
    Where I spend every waking moment wishing this would end.
    I can't take another step, I cannot live inside my mind,
    I can't face another day, I am so fucking tired.
    For I am lost right now as the ocean deep,
    I am low my friend and how my heart does sink.
    Yeah I am lost right now as the ocean deep,
    I am low my friend and how my heart does sink.

    It's like there's cancer in my blood,
    it's like there's water in my lungs
    And I can't take another step --
    Please tell me I am not undone.
    It's like there's fire [under] my skin
    And I'm drowning from within.
    I can't take another breath --
    Please tell me I am not undone.

    I've been searching for an exit but I'm lost inside my head;
    Where I spend every waking moment, wishing I was dead.
    I'll take another step for you --
    I'll shed my tears until I drown, or until I am underground.
    I'll take another breath for you...
    Will you still be there when I'm home, out from the great unknown?

    It's like there's cancer in my blood,
    It's like there's water in my lungs,
    And I can't take another step --
    Please tell me I am not undone.
    It's like there's fire [under] my skin
    And I'm drowning from within.
    I can't take another breath --
    Please tell me I am not undone.